Crowds…

Tonight I went to the ladies conference and there were traveling stage lights and a loud speaker system and a very large crowd and I just kind of froze. I went into a trance. People kept asking me if I was ok and it was so embarrassing. It felt like being on a rollercoaster and wanting to puke and holding on and looking down and people talking to you and trying to turn to look at them and pretend you are feeling normal. I couldn’t feel my feet and I felt dizzy. I just kept telling myself that rollercoasters can be fun too. It was like a fight/flight/freeze kind of adrenaline rush.